Saturday, January 3, 2009

2009, A Better Year, I Hope

Happy 2009!

Am I too late? Hmph. Whatever.

Anyway, this new year's eve was spent in Jy's house, with KFC, pizza and alcohol.

No, I DID NOT get drunk. Just tipsy. And damn, I cried for few seconds this new year's eve. But I controlled the tears and stop it from coming down. Proud of myself cause I'm such an emotional freak. I can cry just like that!

I dare you to say it again. I am going to cry any seconds now.
Cry la. I don't believe.
Pause
*cries*
OMG! Crazy ar you!

I think my tears are like saliva wei. It can just be produce in just a few seconds =.=

SO, why did I cried? It's just over some silly stuffs. But recently, there's a lot of these 'silly' stuffs.

You guys argued again? Wtf

I know. Wtf right. After 4 years, and we are still arguing. I don't know. Is it cause things are changing? And both of us are changing as well?

Stop this topic right now! I don't want to argue

His favourite punch line recently.

It's like everytime I am the one who starts the fight? Why? Cause you ain't good enough for me? You don't suit me? You changed? You put your friends first?

Doubts. Headaches. Tears. Tired.

It's the same thing all over again.

But on the other hand, we are only 20 for god's sake! I don't want us to be label as the 'old couple' No! I want sparks. I want fireworks.

Appreciate what you have now la. Only know how to whine and whine.

Yeah. I am hell of a whiner.

Guys. Takes a lot of effort for them to understand girls. I can't even blog anything sweet about us recently. None. The times where I felt we are so in love, is so long gone. So far away. Can we get it back? Why can't we hold it forever?

I'm sorry. Please don't dump me.

I even beg him to not break up with me. *Laughs* How much have I changed? Is this person someone I know?

No, he ain't a bad boyfriend. I guess there's too much of differences in us. Different needs. Different wants. Different expectations.






2008. I changed a lot.

I hope in 2009, no more tears. No more fights. No more.

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