Monday, May 11, 2009

SHOO Flu

I Don't Believe It.

Guess what? I got running nose again.

WHAT THE HECK.

4 days before my Redang trip and this??!!

Urgh, I am popping up medicine 3 times per day now and pray I would get better before my Redang trip. Imagine, I have to blow my stuffy nose every few seconds when we go for snorkelling. Of course, I won't be able to bring along tissue with me, so I just have to clean it with the sea water.

EWWWWWWW. So gross! And for the record, I don't want to do that okay? Well, if I have to, you can't blame me right?

DOUBLE EWWWWWWW.

I feel bad for the sea, the amazing and beautiful sea creatures and those human.

Okay, let's skip the topic and stop getting carried away talking about how gross I can be.

I was thinking just now, what type of people you would hate the most? Those who are selfish? Hypocrite? Or Backstabber?

Hmph. I guess all of us wouldn't like any bad type of people right?

But on the second thought, aren't we one of them too? We do have our flaws right. Eventhough he/she is our best friend, there's always be something we don't like about them. But, it's our decision to bitch or not bitch about them. We do have some kind of control over these situations.

As for me, I really hate conflicts. I don't like arguement. I don't like it if me and my best friends are not talking to each other. I don't like it if me and my boyfriend stop talking for days. It kills me. Even so, sometimes I don't like to make the first move. Not that we always have arguements. But then, I would be thinking, "Why I have to make the first move? Who she thinks she is? I don't think it's all my fault. She's the one yada yada." I know right, so pessimistic.

Normally, I don't think from both sides, or tried to set aside my anger and just try to solve things. I mean, it doesn't means you are at fault if you make the first move. It just proves that you care about the relationship enough to try to solve it. I am not saying that the other side does not care, they do care. But it takes two right?

Like for example, I HATE it when my boyfriend stop talking to me for days. When I say days it could be 5 days, with the reason 'give us time to chill.' Er, hello?? If you don't talk, are we going to get any better? He used to do that alot previous time when we are practically arguing everyday. One tiny problem, he can dragged on for few days. I hated it. I hate that period so damn much.

During that period, I kept pointing out his flaws and gave myself alot of reasons to not make the first move, until at one point where I grew very tired of arguing. He sucks out alot of energy from me, and I really hated how our relationship has changes.

So, I tried to change. And so far, things are better.

BUT, don't do that to me everytime we argue again okay baby?? Let's make it for the better.

No, don't get me wrong, we did not argue. Things are good now, so far.

Just wanna tell some grandmother stories over here. Sorry if you feel bored la okay.

I'll stop here then before you guys start to shout at me "OMG. Are you done ALREADY?"

Nighty Night xOxo




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